Thinking about the sacred
Healing, like anything in life is not a straight line journey. It’s a path that takes unexpected turns and is very much a journey that is not always predictable. I’ve struggled with that unpredictable nature throughout the past few years as I’ve navigated the journey that I find myself on. It’s been a path of
Finding Peace when the world doesn’t have it
This past week I’ve had a lot of time to reflect on peace. What it is and how to obtain it. I honestly do not know how I define peace for myself. I’ve come to realize that I have never really defined what that is for me or what that might look like. Or even
Responding and communicating
Communication is an interesting thing. I’ve had cause to ask what exactly is it this past week. I sent my ex a message that said the online custody calendar we use was not in compliance with the orders we received from the court. He sent me back a message telling me I was making unilateral
Happy New Year maybe
I was thinking that this year I would finally be able to move forward. In the grand scheme of things I figured the majority of things were finished. Buuuuuutttt that was simply a dream. Apparently there is no end to this reality. I found out that my exH took my DD2 out of state without
Christmas Day Shenanigans
So ExH decided Christmas Day was the day I could move my things. So he pulled several boxes out of the garage onto the driveway. As I started loading boxes, he decided to call the police because I was stealing HIS things. He kept telling me that the judge gave him all of these things
The new normal
So we are into a new normal. A normal where things just seem to be odd when it comes to custody decision making. For 3 years, nearly 4 ExH has fought me on every single decision for my DD2. From whether she should continue to be vaccinated to whether she should have dental cleanings done
Coming back and moving forward
I asked my daughter today if, when she turned 18, she would want to read about my story and my journey through divorce and beyond. She told me yes. So this blog will be an attempt to digest my story so that my kids have an accounting of what happened from my perspective. I’m hoping
Thinking about moving forward is different than doing
When thinking about moving forward it is messier than it seems. It is not a linear journey. It is a journey that is more curves and moving around obstacles. Sometimes those obstacles are mountains that we create for ourselves. The solution then becomes to get out of our own way. I’ve realized through my moving
Processing intrusive thoughts
So I have PTSD. And with that I have to deal with intrusive thoughts and enotions that pop up at inconvenient times. Like tonight. I’m awake at 2 am dealing with emotions and thoughts around losing my things. I’m struggling with letting go. So many precious things lost simply because one person decided that no
How am I supposed to process this?
I’m headed into court to be charged for something that happened 8 months ago. Something I don’t remember. Something that occurred while I was medicated and had cognitive deficits due to the healing of my artery. Why they have waited 8 months? My theory, is that my ex decided that he needed to prosecute me